Head above water

I am taking in air. I have a steady view of the horizon. I wait and watch for activity.

I didn't expect adulthood to be so lonely. I didn't expect to be spending this much time by myself waiting for something to happen. I don't have much hope there will be anything else but this gray fog of purpose from now until the end. I either made all the wrong choices or I am predisposed to sabotage everything that does happen. 

But I am taking in air. I have a horizontal view of a world that is steadier than it seems. I activate my waiting and watching sensors. 

I am in this for the long haul.