Channeling the energy to get through to the pathway

Nothing in me wants to work today. I'm home for a very brief stay before going back up to be with my father. I needed to get here to get a few things and then I'll be there. I don't want to be here really because I can't seem to relax. I would rather be sitting next to my dad.

I have to get two things written today and one of them is mostly done. I will eventually get into the rhythm or something like it, but I just want to relax. So I will do that by just falling into the work however it comes. 

I would post a link to what I'm listening to, but that might not translate into whatever form these words take in the future. I know every single keystroke ends up in the record somewhere. 

My mind is jumbled. I have a lot to get to and I want to relax on this one day I have but there's much I need to get to. Today is the relaxing day of the two I have here. And I may as well spend some of it posting to this journal. This has been going on now for over 20 years and maybe there's something here that is of value. I certainly hope that's the case. 

Maybe if I eat something? 

I forced my way to get more done and now I just hit publish now to do it.