1/02/2025

You don't make friends with Janus...

I'm torn between wanting to get a new newsletter out and just wanting to do nothing. Of course, that's not an option. In an hour I'll be watching the Northeast Regional pull into the station and I'll get on board and I'll try to get the next edition of the Look Back out. 

I'm beginning to think that none of this will ever have mattered, but yet it does. At this moment I feel a sense of shame for some reason that I came back here. I am hopeful it will all be okay. 

What if I make it okay by adopting a positive attitude? Can I do that when I'm feeling so negative? I am torn between both at the moment as I don't know when I will be back in this spot waiting for the sun to shine upon me. 

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