Literally speaking, for less than two months. I'll be back up to Pennsylvania in less than two months. I'm back in Charlottesville after a week away and I don't feel very connected to here. I'm not sure what I feel at the moment.
I'm drinking coffee that is not very good. Was it the way I make it, or is the raw material? I bought something cheap.
The sun is shining and I have this overwhelming sense of oddness. I don't have anything to do today which likely means I could take a break. I don't know if that's something I can do.
I'm only sitting at the moment to watch Andorra v. England in a qualifying match for Europe but I don't know what this is for. Perhaps I should but I miss the football being on the television and I'm happy to have this on.
I feel very far away from my parents. Do I need to stay here in Charlottesville? I don't think I can grow here, but I also may not survive a transplant.
I don't think I want to go to a summit for the independent news group I belong to. It's in September and I don't know if I belong to any of that. I don't feel very stable in the work I do when I'm not in the middle of doing it. I feel like others will always be better.
So I do the work while I go through and it will all be okay if want it to be. Which is to say I am older and can balance myself. The work is grounding and I'm glad to be able to do it. I know that today will end up being a good day if I can just get through it and have something to show for it.
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