I don't stop and this is a detriment but the momentum is there and I am watching a bid letting for the Virginia Department of Transportation. I can get a small story out from it, a project in Fluvanna County. But, will I today?
I am sorting through old emails and seeing items I can use to solve the many problems I have. It all adds up because I'm always running from solutions and yet today I am going to bypass the need to get content out and instead want to try to figure out my own future. I can't keep going at this pace and expect to stay sane.
I may already be into the red.
So maybe I will phase into a different existence today and begin to clean up a little, maybe a little more than usual. I have to find a way to correct this trajectory and worry I will lose or overly distort the orbit of my faculties.
I just reconciled June 27. A presidential resignation. A failed attempt at getting an answer. An eye doctor's appointment. I still have not ordered the contact lens replacements. That is the sort of item I overlook.
Perhaps today I will do that task. Perhaps I will do the other tasks. I create so many and only pay attention to finishing up the newsletter. Perhaps I will do one today. At this moment I'm watching the man read the bid lettings and the details fascinate me. My ears perk up when I hear about a project on Interstate 64. I could put that in the story, too.
I love doing what I do. But to do it I feel I need to be isolated from the world. I juggle so many tasks and have so much to report, but the structure within needs repair and maintenance. Perhaps today I will do that task. When the man stops reading the bids, though, I'll have to make a note of what I learned.
And then I think this own vehicle might be useful.
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