I've spent my life trying to explain to people how government works. But what if people don't want to follow those rules anymore? If I walked away, I could remove a need for a lot of information and I could fill it up with something else.
Every day follows the same pattern with slight variations. All of them are filled with the work of documenting information about how local government works. I enjoy this but I find that people don't care about rules anymore because the results have been something disconcerting.
I followed the rules, I think, but what are they? Do they tie me to this place, a purgatorial experience in which I increasingly question my own existence.
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The above written, I begin to get into the work while listening to a couple of DJs play music from the 70's that is new to me. I put them on often as I learn new music from them. All I want each day is to learn something new. This is what helps keep me alive. This is the life I want.
I have settled into the work, listening to a recording from a meeting 12 days ago. No one else has reported the information and the recording is not available to the public. Since the pandemic, I harvest information from meetings. I am reluctant to be around people for reasons I could explain.
I am not as cross as I was when I began this email.
These days I run the meetings through a transcription device powered by AI. I am able to skim the words of the top official at the University of Virginia as she tells the new members of the Board of Visitors how great the place is.
"Henry Ford once said coming together is the beginning, staying together is progress and working together is success."
I work alone and have done for many years. I would like to change that but I'm not sure how to do that. So for now I skip over the information about UVA tuition because that's not something I'm interested in for the newsletter.
Or is it? After all, I write from a perspective unique to the work I've done all of these years. I did not go to the University of Virginia and have very little connection to the place at this time.
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I am keeping this up all day because I find that keeping open a window on this blog to be useful as I think about what I am doing today. I find myself asking why I still do this work, and that may be a useful thing for me to do as I confront the necessity of bringing in more revenue.
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This has to be closed because I need to stick today. Was there a point? Does it matter?
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