I am trying to normalize being at home on Friday nights when I'm in Charlottesville. This is a component of feeling I need to work much harder now that the business is established but leaky. It feels so many things could go wrong, and it's hard to attend to any of that while I'm also trying to keep on top of everything.
On Monday, I wrote a newsletter that stitched together several meetings held by City Council. I pieced together information no other reporter had done. This landed with a thud and I received almost no feedback.
This may have been because it took me a while to get to it, but I also don't quite remember where I was during all of that. I was here in this house, of course, but the details fade. All that matters is the work.
There are other elements that explain my being home. For one, I'm low on funds and a problem with going out sometime is that money is spent quickly without knowing where the funds actually come from. This can be a lot of fun and lead to life.
But I am finding if I don't work seven days a week, I'll fall behind. Slowing down isn't an option, so I choose to try to keep fixing the pathway.
Tonight I'm going to watch four people come back from a flyby around the moon and wishing for their success. I've not seen that before because I grew up under the Space Shuttle program which ended with a thud, like my budget stories.
I am finding a lot I want to be around people with my interests and I want to find people with the same energy and wavelength as me. Perhaps the answer is not to leave, but it is to try to apply experience to the methods by wihch I will fix the pathway?
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