For the past four days, I've had to execute a mission I do not agree with, and I accept that I have no power. In doing so, I am able to let go a lot of angst. I find the times I can to enjoy my life.
These days that means walking. I am grounded if my body is able to move around. I will not always be healthy so I should do what I can to keep myself in shape.
I also know I do not want to live into my 80's. I look around at people in the retirement home and I watch my father disintegrate and I am confident in stating I do not want that. I also accept that death can happen at any moment, so I will try to live the rest of my life accordingly.
Life is a gift. It's not up to me to decide how others live their life, and it's up to me to determine how I will live mine. Each day is precious and there are moments of joy all around. There are also others who take pleasure from crushing other's joy.
I will not let that happen to me again. I'm just here to execute my mission which is to experience whatever I can.
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