I've been back for three days almost and I'm used to being alone so I think I'll keep that up. I need to change a lot of my habits and learn new ones.
I realize all I have is myself and sometimes the people I let close to me should be kept away. I only have need for myself, as I have my best interest in mind.
Or at least I need to remember that I chose a path or a path was chosen for me that will keep me insolation.
Then again, this is but one day and one moment in which I have the memory of a different pathway, one I am not able to take.
Yet, what if none of this is real and everything I write is that of a phantom? A ghost in the works? A person who never really was?
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The reality is, though, I need to focus on my work. I've been able to do this work for five years as an independent and I want to keep going.
And I can't afford the downsides of attempting to be with people. Or something like that. I don't know.
I told myself not to write any of this down but yet I did.
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